Age 18 I decided I wanted a tattoo. Age 29 I wish I didn’t have one! What’s happened in the last 11 years to change my mind? I wanted to share with you why I decided to get one in the first place and what’s changed my mind about my tattoo.
Age 18 – The Tattoo
I had always wanted a tattoo but like all teenage girls changed my mind on what I wanted and where I wanted it! Back in my chav days I wanted a playboy bunny on my bum! (CRINGE!!!) I’m so glad that phase died out quickly! Being a dancer music was a massive part of my life and I really liked the idea of having musical notes. After lots of thought and playing around with ideas I decided I wanted it to run down my spine. I discussed the idea with my Mum and Nannie who were both not too keen on the idea! “What will you do on your wedding day?” “It’s slutty!” “What will it look like when you’re older” were a few of the comments thrown around. But stubborn me wasn’t going to listen or take their advice! So off I went. 2 years later I added to the design as I felt it was too plain. I had a leaf design wrapped around it. It was horrifically painful but I have a good pain threshold and with that kind of pain, because I know its not going to last forever I really don’t mind it!
I was so happy with it, even mum and Nannie had to agree it was super pretty, not tacky and really well done. When ever the opportunity arose I would wear a top that would show it off! I loved it.
What Changed? 11 years on…
It’s one of those ‘shoulda, woulda, coulda’ situations. Should have listened to my mum! Wouldn’t have had something so big and visible and if I could go back I defo wouldn’t have had it done! Don’t get me wrong I’m not disgusted by it but I don’t think it’s very ‘me’ any more. I don’t have to look at it so it doesn’t bother me on a daily basis but I am very conscious that it is there and would rather it wasn’t! I know there are certain occasions where I will have it covered, my wedding day will be one of those! I will have a proper makeup artist come and cover it so I can have confidence that it looks naturally covered. Kids, listen to you parents they are normally right! (Sorry mum!) Now removal has gone through my mind but I know it is more painful than the actual tattoo and I know how bad that was so I don’t think I want to put myself through it to be left with scaring that could look worse. So it is something I will live with and I will just have to deal with that. It’s not going to change anything and it could have been a lot worse so I have that to be thankful for!
I’d love to hear from you if you have a similar situation or if you have gone through tattoo removal yourself. Or just share your tattoo story whether you love it or hate it! If you’re reading this and your thinking of getting a tattoo but you’re still not 100% sure, just take your time and think about it before you take the plunge!
Lady Like Laura